"The Dark "

How did I find the dark?

In the constant search for the hereafter, sometimes we collide with the here and now. We try all kinds of spells, those that they tell us, those that they say they tried, and finally those that we already know ourselves, We try to believe that we are masters of our destiny. We play God. And in our finite mind, we sometimes create parallel realities that make us feel powerful, fearful, about to reach heaven, or hell, about to move to another energy state, to another state of matter, about to leave, this body of meat, and become worms, and energy.

We forget that we were created perfect and in that same search we failed. We came to less. We were not enough for the test that we were given. But even so, our arrogance and contempt for mercy and the gift of life, make us try again and day after day.

Many will say that curiosity is not bad. No, it is not. Curiosity with intelligence is very good. It leads to development. Not so curiosity with the arrogance of stupidity. To believe that one is capable of doing when we are not even capable of loving.

 

To love . Love without condition, without being told that I love you but ..... You are good but .....

I still have life. And I want to live it on my terms.

The desire to live leads you to the curiosity to try. To try new things. How will it be if ...

And if you are lucky enough to try and that it turns out well, well, we will fly. You have wings, you think you can achieve anything in the universe. In that little space of time where your mind is flying. You think you are God. You feel full. Nothing ties you to this reality. Until your flight time runs out.

Now, what happens when, even in this out-of-body experience, your mind is so powerful that the arrogance that gives the power of Flying is not enough for you to forget that you exist in this universe. That your body is telling you to fly. But your mind tells you No, this is not the way. "Do not lose the power to be the owner of your now".

This time, now, it is worth it, when you give it the "Real Value". But when you intoxicate your soul with the wind and begin to levitate, then the Now becomes "Timeless". You become small and pain turns to relief. But the heart reminds you that the mind is struggling.

DO NOT GO.

Don't get lost in that black hole. It's not real. Nobody lives there but all human miseries. That's why they invented forgetting, turning the page, the "Flight" that if you don't have wings they sell them on the corner of the block.

No . Power without control was not pretty, power without control is Chaos. And chaos only generates an order based on Chaos. You lose the freedom to control yourself. And at that moment you remember, If you did not lose your mind in the fantasies of flying. You remember your loved ones, what happens if you don't return from that Portal? What happens with your families, with the beings in this world who still depend on you, or who wait for you every day to make life difficult, sometimes painful, but who gives you a reason to open your eyes every day.

What happened God ???? I knew the Darkness. Some would call it hell. And I don't like it. It scared me. When you see nothing, Everything is literal and really black. the pain of guilt in your chest does not let you breathe. When your fear turns to despair and supplication.

Please, God!!!!. Do not leave me. I ask you for one more chance.

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